A Letter to My Youngest and Dearest Sister

I will always and forever love you.

Dear sister,

I had to just leave for the millionth time today. And being your oldest sibling, it never gets easier.

My heart broke as you stood in front of the doorway, begging me not to leave. I teared up watching you stand in front of my car as I tried to put my baggage inside. I cried when you sobbed as I said my goodbyes, watching as you ran upstairs and slammed the door because I was leaving you. And though I am going to see you for Christmas (and for your birthday, but this you didn’t know), it didn’t matter. I was leaving you.

You post pictures and videos all the time on SnapChat and TikTok, telling your followers that I’m your inspiration. I’m the one you look up to most. My heart swells at the thought because I have always wanted to be your favorite person as you are mine.

It’s the hardest thing to leave someone you love behind. It’s even harder to know that their pain and suffering is all because of you.

I hope you know that even though we live 2,000 miles apart, my love for you is still just as strong as it was when I lived at home. And I think about you every day.

I miss our “hair days” when you would sit in front of my bedroom mirror while I…